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Never stopped thinking, never stopped doubting, never stopped yearning, never stopped wondering. When wld you be able to tell me what you are thinking, what you are feeling and what you are wanting? I guess that's the thing between us, that's why we never ever managed to tell the truth.

Sorry for the lack of updates, due to the laggy laptop that I have in hand now. However, my dad updated the ram so its working much faster however I gotta delete song, pictures and documents soon because they are eating up to my ram space lagging my whole computer.

This week will be tiring because there wld be many on going such as hillary challenge tmrw, cca on thurs, moboteebitz and guides campfire on friday. Hardly taking a breather for the holidays. It doesn't even feel like a holiday at all!!

Sigh I gotta work extra harder if I want to get the grades that I want because somehow I just feel that Im not working hard enough at all and should be working more. Afterall I dnt want to look back and realise that Ive been wasting my time at those so unnecessary ruining my future right.

And somehow some people and somethings are just not worth it. Because all I need are those few people who really really really matter. Like them, because they let me feel like I have the whole world together with me. Making me happy almost every moment when we are together. And to me, that is all the happiness that I ever ever need in my life.

Unlike people whom I think is out to get me and haunt me. Although I've always said that I want to forget and I want to get over it but then I know I cant ever really do that, however I'd try. And if it doesn't work TRY EVEN HARDER.

Sometimes I think you(s) mean the world, but sometimes I think you(s) mean nothing.

But somehow I wonder, is this me speaking, or is this jealousy speaking.

Sorry for this very very long and wordy post.
Gotta sleep early because tmrw is Hillary Challenge, WISH ME LUCK PEOPLE.

xoxo