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i fucked up my gpa very badly and i actually feel like crying now because of the lecture that my parents gave me just now. not that i feel like crying because they scolded me or whatever (who gives a fuck?) but because they said that this is the last straw and they are going to cut me off ncc. cut off means zero contact, zlich, nothing. fuck it.

they keep saying that ncc is the cause of everything and ive devoted too much into it but wtf you were the one who said that i cannot have passion for anything in my life and i cld never achieve anything in my life and now that i have find something that i truly love you are going to cut my off because of a bloody fucking f9 for my chemistry? now that ive find something that i truly truly want to commit to and you just want to cut me off because of a term that i didn really do well in. fuck it. ive tried to give you everything that i can and prove that im worth everything but then in the end you just seem to brush off like they aint even worth a penny of your thoughts.

i know that it is my big fucking problem that i screwed my results up and handing in my assignments late i agree. im the big fuck here but the thing is even if i dnt have ncc, i wld still do the same because guess what im still the big lazy fuck you have in the house who only use the computer to surf blogs and chitchat. because you know what even if i were to do well like last year when i finally got a gpa of 3 and above you didn even fucking say good job and keep picking on the little things that i do wrong.

why cant you be more like sister and say wah your history very good neh get A1 and not treat it like it nothing. i do need some fucking praises im no superhero. ah you just make me so fucking mad alright.

how im gna end is how im gna stay.

I AINT FUCKING CUTTING OFF FROM NCC. NEVER EVER.

P.S. tag replies not today. am very sorry.