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What can I do to stop this from happening?

Ive been going through this over and over again and then it seems them Im in this big loop that I cannot get out from. Im super sick and tired of this happening over and over again and there is no way out for me. Im just laughing everyday, not telling what I really feel. I really really hate this feeling and I hate myself more for not trying to do anything about it. But recently Ive been so tired, I get this feeling that only they mattered.

And none of that really do matter anymore.

But why give me this and take away so many thing else. Am I not worth to get more? Am I not worth to be more?

Can I have more?

They keep telling me that what matters most is that you control your life, but no matter how hard I try I can't seem to grasp it, let alone control it.

I was so happy and contented, why do you have to come and break my happy dream?

If you didn't think that I was worth it, why the fuck give the bloody shit to me?

Im so bloody, fucking tired of this shit.

And P.S. I dnt fucking let you.