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whr'd i go wrong.

okay.
i know you have been hearg this oh-so-often
but hey,
its the truth that life sucks sometimes.
well, maybe not some times.
all the times.
like what i always feel
people dying people crying.
but who cares about them aye?

cause people have their own frigging problems.

k, so you are thkg,
"qiaowei is gng to be emo agn."
AND YES,
i am gng to be emo agn.

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i really really dont know whr'd i go wrong.
doesn that sound oh-so-cliche?
i absolutely have no idea what's gng on in MY LIFE.

notice the CAPS.
cause its MY life and i do not have a single idea what's gng on.
whatever.
im just pourg out my rants.

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thr was a time.
when people love one another,
almost as dearly to their dearest lives.

but this time is over.
cause people are always blinded by what they want.
and they soon forget about what they need.
people started to get jealous of one another.
and everybody starts to hurt one another.

some unknowingly and some knowingly.

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actually
i know v well whr'd i go wrong.
its just that maybe im running away from what i know.
maybe im just running away from everyth.
maybe.

so many "maybe"s in the world,
i dno which one do i belong to.
but,
i just know.
i wanna see the people i love be happy.
so if thats what you need to do to get YOUR happiness,
i'd rather be the one.

maybe that doesn make sense to you.
cause it doesn make any sense to me either.

xls posted a qns:
is it worth it to sacrifice yourself to save others?

frankly.
i dont thk so,
and of course,
from an outsider's point of view of the 911.

however,
being the one in what's all these gng on,
i thk that it is worth it.

maybe somewhr in me i thk that i must be f-ing stupid to thk so.
but now.
i thk that
it is worth it.
at least it is for them.

but a song and a qns rings in my mind.
"How to save a life?"

is what im dng the right way to solve what's happening btwn us?
is what im dng right?
is it?

fine,
i still dont have a definite answer.

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suddenly,
it came so clear to me,
why do i like blogging.

esp. nowadays.

i need to sort out my thoughts.
desperately.

i cant depend on anyone,
anymore.

because,
i feel that its time that i take responsibility of myself on my own.
i dont wanna trouble people w MY problems because they have THEIR problems alr.

even if i wanna share,
its a lot more complicated that you thk.
or even i thk.

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to me,
god isnt the answer.

i rather be on my own.

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if that's what make you happy.
i dont mind.

not a lil' at all.
not a lil' at all.

cause' ily.