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im not much of an expresser.
i cant express myself perfectly, unlike alotof the others.
sometimes, ive got a millions thgs to shout out.
and yet, i cant find the words that wld do justice to what i wanna say.

i cant express how much i love them.
i cant express how much they mean to me.
i cant express how much i hate hvg sorethroats.
i cant even express how much it hurts me to see the one i love hurt so much.

people dn get why i react to issues so violently.
because i cant express myself.
people dn get why i wanna do thgs a certain way.
because i cant express myself.

this make me feel empty.
i have so so much to say.
and just because im "not much of an expresser",
i have to forget abt everyth i wanna say.

i really love them alot alot alot alot alot.
they mean so much to me.
i cant lose them.
yet i thk i am.
im losing them.
i really am.
nobody really cares.
cause' they dno how fucked-up im feelg now.
i feel like a fucktard caring about so many thgs when others dn even give a damn.

people always misunderstand what im trying to say.
they dn get me, throwing in blank faces, askg me to repeat whatever shit i just said.
i repeated, they dn get it.
i have to forget abt everyth.
i hate that.

i need someone who knows what im trying to do, what im trying to say, and what am i feelg.
i need someone who dn misunderstand me.
i need someone that knows that i love them.
i need someone that knows that they are the world to me.
i need someone that makes me feel important to them.

i need someone.

i have those someones.
i just dno whether they have any idea abt it.

i dn understand whr'd i go wrong.
im losing everyth.
because i cant say out how i feel.
everyth just remains thr.
one of the most important people in my life once told me
"__, dn keep everyth bottled up. because its not good for you. im always here."
i used to bottle everyth up.
now when i wanna shout out how i feel,
i cant.
i can only let h2o out of my eyes.
but that just doesnt do justice to what i truely want to say.

aft typing such a long post,
i still dno how to express how i feel at this moment.
at this moment,
i still cant express how people matters to me.

xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

those "<3s" dont exist anymore.
it hurts me to see how far apart we've been.
i agree thgs aint what it used to be.
but to me,
its most imptortant that i still love y'all like ive always love y'all.
and what i need to know is that whether y'all still love me like before.
i dn wanna guess anymore.

every yesterday today tomorrow,
i thank god for hvg y'all in my life.
sisters, friends, lovers,
to me,
this cant express how much y'all means to me.

i love all of y'all.
every single bit of y'all.
please.
keep what we have.
forever.